I'm on fire!

Wow, this is two entire updates in three days, someone better check the alignment of the planets, because I have a feeling some shit is about ready to go down. Anyway, today has been about as uneventful as any in recent memory. I had to work at 7:30 this morning which makes for a fairly unhappy Adam. The great thing is I only went to 50 minutes of my 100 minute class and did not go back to work for my last 3 1/2 hour shift. I just decided that it was time to take a day off and a day off I took. I have done nothing but three loads of laundry since 9:50 this morning. I am trying to eradicate this complex I have developed where I need to constantly be busy, bettering myself for some future that seems to be drifting farther away rather than approaching. So with that in mind, I am sitting here doing nothing and trying real hard to just enjoy the beauty of life for once. Well I think I am just going to kick it with a few good friends tonight and watch a movie or two. Have a great night and do not, I repeat do not drink the water.
Signing out from Luther College

Sitting alone, so alone.

Have you ever just felt alone? It is like no matter how many people and things your surround yourself with this feeling of being alone is always there. I don't mean to sound depressing or make it seem like my life is a living hell. The thing is that the last few months I have conquered with a companion, not a girlfriend, but just a very good friend. Unfortunately it seems that the closer and more attached you become to someone, the farther you drift away. Eventually everything in this world is reduced to nothing, materials, people and most definitely human relationships. When you find that you are alone in the world there is only one thing you can do, sit back, look to the future and try to grasp on to the next false feeling of companionship. What really is life besides a subtle movement from one pseudo companion to the next. So here I sit all alone, all alone I sit.